Sometimes. No, most all of the time I feel like the black sheep of everyone. I don't belong anywhere. I feel as if wherever I'm anywhere I'm just there. No important. No significance. I feel like no one wants me near them and when they do want me its just so they can take advantage of me. Its not fair. I'm a nuisance of society. I'm a faux pas.I'm the misfit of the misfits. I just want to belong. I don't want to be alone. I feel like I'm a terrible person that people put up with for no reason. I feel like if I died people would celebrate. I want to mean something to somebody. I don't want to be annoying. I don't want to do excess things. Its just every little thing I do is annoying. Every step. Every breath. Every swallow. Every blink. It seems as if every time I'm in need, NO ONE not a single soul is there for me. But as soon as someone else needs help I'm there. I don't know how to say no. I need someone to save me from myself. Before something else does.
Saturday, September 1, 2012
Monday, August 27, 2012
Again Again.
Urghh. The girl. She probably thinks I'm an immature boy. Nooo. That''s what I didn't want her to think. But she probably does. I don't understand girls. One day they flirt with you and act like they like you and the next they act like you're a stranger. Then maybe... Just maybe I'm assuming. Or imagining this all in my head. I could be crazy you know? I mean I do get attached like that*snap*. It happened last year and oh my it was terrible. I was attached all the way through summer. I don't want to happen again unless its an actual relationship. Like a REALationship. but I don't know. She could like me or not. If she doesn't that would suck. If she does that would be AH-MAZING. Ergh. Girls will be the death of me
Saturday, August 25, 2012
There's this girl
Soooo. There's this one girl. And she's just so wonderful! =D Every time I see her I get all these silly feelings but the feelings they're so s- SO wonderful! Like indulging in your most favorite desert or taking a nice cold shower on a boiling hot summer day. But I get mixed signals from her. Some days I think she likes me back. Other days I feel as if she thinks of me as nothing more than a friend! OH OH OH and there's this one obstacle. This boy in our bio class. He's always flirting with her and every other girl in the ENTIRE and I mean ENTIRE school. What if she likes him? I mean she knows he's a player right? Everyone does. Why can't he just leave her alone? Grrrrr. omfg. What if she thinks I'm just a joke. -sigh- I really do like her though. I like her giggle. That's the cutest thing of all. I like the way she flips her hair, how she's soooo so smart, she's extremely goofy. We're like a match made in heaven. oohh. but I don't know what to do. I think I made it clear to her that I like her. She probably thinks I was joking. but I was serious! No one takes me seriously!
First Post!
Hi there! This is so exciting. My first post. Haha. I'm so used to using tumblr. but I don't feel like that's a website for "Blogging". I hope I mature throughout this.
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